Supernatural season 8 thoughts

So life got in the way of binge watching this but I finally finished it and I have few thoughts.

Firstly, I kinda hate (=love) the way this show continuously breaks my heart. The smallest thing can make me cry. Garth declaring how Bobby was important to the whole hunter community. Dean's guilt over leaving Cas to Purgatory, and actually any moment Dean gets emotional cos Jensen Ackles is one of those actors that whenever he starts crying then I start crying (other actors in this category are David Tennant, Tom Hiddleston, Kristen Bell and Alyson Hannigan). The small moment in the finale when the boys meet Crowley at Bobby's and they see his old car in the junk yard except now it's growing green stuff. That was a punch in the heart...

Secondly, the reason I love rewatching things is that you can always spot something new. What really became evident on this rewatch is that Dean can be really cruel. Now it's no surprise that I'm a Dean girl because I relate to him a lot more than I relate to Sam, so I can be a bit biased while watching this show. But in the first half of the season Dean is really harsh on Sam and other people. I mean, while I understand that Dean is hurt that Sam never looked for him and I have hard time understanding Sam's reasoning for this and not looking for Kevin, Dean's blatant use of Amelia to distract Sam is actually quite cruel. But at least Charlie calls him out on this. And Dean's ready to kill Mrs. Tran to kill Crowley. I get that he wants Crowley gone but Kevin's mom is awesome and should not be killed. Dean is also hard on Garth (poor Garth) when he sees Garth has become the "new Bobby". This can be read as Dean missing Bobby but I think it also shows the effect the Purgatory has had on Dean. He has been fighting for his life for a year and it's bound to have an effect.  So he's become colder and more willing to do whatever it takes to win.
I'd also say that's the reason Dean does not see light at the end of the tunnel. Sam has spend a year falling in love, so of course he can see a life beyond hunting. Dean, on the other hand, has spend his entire life fighting and knows it does not necessarily end after death (especially if you're going to Hell or Purgatory). He tried normal life with Lisa and it did not work so I don't think he believes in a normal life anymore. But at the same time he wants a home. Just look at the way he settles into the Men of Letters bunker. He decorates his room and everything! He is resigned to his life as a hunter and so the bunker is as close to a real home as he is going to get so he's going to make the most of it. Sam, on the other hand, knows what real home is and believes he can get there so to him the bunker is just a intellectual attraction. It's not a home but a place that can help him to get a home.

 It's interesting then to note how their positions change by the end of the season. Sam no longer cares that the trials are going to kill him. He has watched Dean belittle him all season, seen Dean trust a vampire and confide in Benny in ways he has not done with Sam just to name few things (this is also an interesting parallel to Dean's behaviour in season 5 where he openly blames Sam for letting Lucifer free and his growing reliance on Cas). So it's not hard to see why Sam believes it would be better for everyone if Sam dies while closing the gates. Dean, on the other hand, has spend half a season watching his brother become weaker and more sick which probably has made him realise how much he loves Sam and needs him so he does not want Sam to die.

Other small observations.
- I hate Metatron, especially in light of season 9.
- Charlie should make a lot of appearances on this show, she is so awesome, and she should be back season 10 and not die.
- This season was quite light on Cas and show needs more Cas, but preferably without the issues with Dean and without the constant guilt trips. The show already has Dean feeling bad about everything he's ever done and while it's part of his character, one character acting like that is enough.
- Crowley is awesome and I love watching him interact with the boys. Him calling Sam Moose will never stop being amazing and his presence is always a treat.

I'll be starting season 9 soon and I'm sure it will give me more thoughts and season 10 expectations/hopes.